I want to be myself!

I am an emotional guy.
A guy with low tolerance level, poor anger management skill.
A guy who is easily influenced by others..someone who live under the shadow of others.

Sometimes I am so tired that i dont feel like being myself.
However, being myself is quite tough especially when people tends to associate high EQ with success.

I was associated with the word "negative thinking" by some of my friends. To be frank, i dont like to be known as someone who only laments. I have been trying hard to improve my character.. just that at critical time, sensitivity conquers sensibility.

I knew that my confidence level dropped quite a lot when i first came to study in Singapore. I realised i was so timid when i was exposed to a new environment. I would care so much about my face and my presence among others.

I want to be myself. I want to be myself. I tell myself, i want to become myself. I want to be happy and cheerful. I dont want to be troubled by so much anxieties.

So, should i start ignoring how people look at me? hahahaha...

My original ending word was "Would other people accept for what i am?"...i din use this as ending as i found it inappropriate...but again..that's what i was thinking 1 min ago!

I am really poisoned with such negative thoughts for too long....SHIT!

Give me time, i want to be myself, i want to lead a good life. i want to achieve my dream, i want to become what i want to become.

To those who read my blog, please pardon my English as I hardly write in English. Please correct me if i made any grammar or vocabulary mistakes.

I say it, i can make it. i will make it!